Listening and Acceptance (aka The Ramblings of a Teenage Girl)

I wrote this this morning in my Daily Life Journal inspired by a long talk I had with Ashlen Covely and Ellie Shortridge (aka Alice). I got to thinking about it...and this makes soooo much sense!! Now...take a look into Hali's mind....if you aren't scared.......*winks*



Sometimes I feel like it's so hard to listen. I just want my life to be in a planner given to me by God at birth. "This is your life...go live it the way I planned". But unfortunately to get closer to God humans have to go through trials. We also need to go through these to prepare us for our lives.
But it's hard to hear what God is saying sometimes over the lies of the world.
"You have to have a boyfriend"
"You have to be as skinny as this model or else you're fat"
blah blah blahty blah

Our society is corrupt. To be accepted in this society we must be sinful. I mean it's weird for people my age to hear that I'm a virgin. They think "She's not normal." It's weird for someone not to have lived with their boyfriend/girlfriend before being married. Sometimes it's hard not to conform because humans long for acceptance. It's just in us. But sometimes we don't realize that in God's eyes we're always accepted. Accepted exactly as we are. Ugly, filthy, sinful creatures. He looks at us and thinks we are beautiful. This is something that has just amazed me! We are so disgusting and unworthy and He still loves us! With a burning, everlasting love. It's crazy! But God's a crazy God. He has done things we can never imagine!
I believe as long as we can see our worth as not being judged by, "this guy who likes me" or "these friends who accept me" but by God...we will feel acceptence and hear what He has to say! What He has to say is much more important than anything else. If really listen...we will hear.

But I guess the real question is... who/what judges your worth? Is it something worldly or is it God. It's HARD!!! It REALLY is to let God judge your worth! Sometimes we forget about him. I mean there are days when I just want a guy to like me. I would feel pretty and loved.........

But think about that...! Who really judges my worth? God!!! I was so beautiful and loved that God sent His ONLY son to die in my place!!! I was to die for!!! Jesus loved me sooo much that He gave His live so I could keep mine! I must be pretty special if Jesus though I was worth dying for! Like I said our society makes this okay! They make us think we can only be accepted if the world accepts us. We just have to remember we are accepted no matter what!!
I think once we truly feel accepted we will be ready to hear God. And if we're really truly listening....we will!!